Mundanity

Nothing much have really happened these few days..and sorry for updating late. Have exams this week so couldn't spare time for this.


But exams or not, nothing could really stop me from paying visits to the nearest cinema. Yesterday, me and my friends went for a movie called The Terminal. And man, it was great. Every element of impression was in that movie - excellent acting, unique characterizing, perfect character development. It may be a simple plot, but the producers sure have done a wonderful job. The scenes are touching, not to mention Catherine Zeta-Jones was damn hot. All in all a wonderful production, and yes I wouldn't mind paying double to watch it. My highest recommendations for this movie.


Second thing that happened to me this week - I played God. Yes, I directed someone else's life, giving endless advices as to where he should go, what he should do to get that girl, what should he do to be a better person...and so on - guiding him through thick and thin. I saw him pairing off with the girl and claiming successes in his life. I am now so proud of him. But now, he has moved to a place far far away. No longer will I be able to see him again. I miss him now. But I guess life has to go on.........



Therefore I created a new Sim for myself...yay. Yeap..been playing Sims 2. And go get it guys, its good. Nothing compared to good ol fun of torturing ur Sims like throwing him in the pool or getting him to slap every girl in the neighbourhood once you get too bored with him. Trust me, you don't need to be a sadist to enjoy this.


Songs recommended for download this week : Keane - Somewhere only we know
Ben Jelen - Come on

Good songs...heed advice and get hands on songs...

Anyway, nothing inspiring has happened...sad huh, so thats why I couldn't really come out with anything good to discuss about. Bear with me awhile till something hits me. Till then, tata

/Skeith, sharing is caring

SS..Super Sunday? Sadly, no.

The whole day was a disaster.

Disaster, Take 1 :
First my admission ticket for the second retake of SAT got screwed. Could not print it from the web due to information clashes which is ultimately due to creation of too many accounts. How dumb can a website get? Mixing of information should not be a problem. Sadly, it took me 3-4 hours of pondering before being to hack through the system and retrieve my information, fix my account and my ticket...At least I dont have to worry about that for now.

Disaster, Take 2 :
Indirectly, while confusing the system to retrieve my ticket, I found out how to get my result too. So, my results are out...took me some time to hack the system and sniff out my marks. And what do you know....I did bad. 1370 (710 maths 660 verbal). 1 word, devastated. This isn't my usual score for the practice test. Where did I go wrong? I can only blame myself for not enough sleep, preparation and also panicking during exam hours. Again, I spent 1-2 hours sulking and regretting before getting over it. Chee Yong, I now know how u felt. I guess the second time around won't be that bad. Next time, I wont be intimidated by the slow process of waiting for the test to start, nor the fast progress of time when the test is running. I shall be prepared.

Disaster, Take 3 :
I bent the cover of my Dan Brown book!! ....But luckily managed to get it back in shape.

Disaster, Take 4 :
Maths test tomorrow...spent most of my time on the SAT stuffs, I totally neglected it. I might not be in shape tomorrow...but Im trying to fix it even now.

Disaster, Take 5 :
This is the worst. She messaged, and I told her bout my marks. Then she asked me to help her check hers. Ok so I did. Again I went through all the procedures. But it's ok this time. I'd be happy if she did well and didn't have to resit the test. Unfortunately......yeah...it was bad too. I know she's rather demoralized now. I feel worst now that she too suffers from bad scores. Wonder what happened to both of our scores. Painful, indeed. I hope she'll get over it by tonight. I did my best to help.

I'll post something that we all could discuss about the next time around. For now, it's study time and also a little sanctuary to settle the dust.

/Skeith, not feeling lucky

Quandary

Regarding the previous post's comment....I'm touched, Chee Yong. Best piece of advice I heard in a long time. Will improvise. Thanks for the feedback people. Keep em coming. Don't be shy to comment on older posts too, they're all mutually individual and deserves some feedback.

Anyway was an off day for me today. Went to school this morning to pass up some forms with her, and then fetched her home. As she sat there next to me in the car, we talked about many things. Surprising, she's beginning to open up more and could now talked about stuffs she would never reveal before, what she thinks about some sensitive matters. I'm glad. At the same time, it made me wonder. She is already this much closer to me, but what exactly does she feel? So hard to tell that part. Am I still a friend? Deep inside I hope I'm something more in her eyes.

We reached the highway. All the way we talked and joked. She was laughing and smiling alot. I felt good. What a way to start the morning. Then I wondered again. Am I doing the right thing? Am I still going to stick to my stand? We're already going to part in a year or so. Am I to pursue something I would most likely lose? Life is unfair...I know that long ago. But it's here where that line really hits. Sometimes I dont know why I think so much. But I guess I'm just being me. Still, I don't know how she feels. I feel my fragile mind wandering, my will bending. Could I still stick to my stand, and avoid these unfruitful relationships? Like she would say : A point to ponder.

What would you do, if you were me? After 30 minutes, we reached her destination. She climbed out of the car, gave me a warm goodbye, and then walked off. I smiled and drove home....30 minutes....seems like only one to me.....

/Skeith, lost in thoughts..yet again

Good Judgment

Finished with the advertisement assignment for Oral Communications today. Yeah me, Peter, Sinyi and Joyce locked ourselves in our house for 2 whole days in my house to complete it. Presented the whole thing in 20 minutes today, and I think we did just ok. Very well worked on, but delivered like any other presentations : no candy.

So..it was a pretty good day, being worked so hard and finally presenting our work without much flaws,...until our OC teacher announced the results for our previous project : the radio drama. We got a B+. Am I supposed to be happy? Upon hearing it, I instantly turned silent. Not to mention anger surging into me.....SHIT MAN! How could she just give us a B+ for that masterpiece. OK, we nearly got full, and the marks for the script dragged us down. But couldn't she compromise? Most groups equalize ours but nevertheless got an A because they did well for their scripts. But I think that our group was outstanding. And thats not the most painful of all : we were 1 mark behind an A-.. and we we're 1 mark behind the max mark for the drama presentation itself...yes ouch. What more, some of the groups that has gotten A's werent even as good as us. Not that I say that they don't deserve their scores (no offence here), having put equal effort into their work, its just that WE dont deserve what we got, having done much better in the real thing.

Not being overly bold, but I suspect that what we had put into the project, all our sweat and tears...and maybe blood :P (ok overexaggerating here), all our sleepless nights and all the manpower involved DO NOT make us deserve a B+. Im quite disappointed at how our lecturer evaluate us. I was so confident that we could achieve at least an A-. Aih...so near yet miles away.

So anyway, whats over is over, Im already over this now. This experience has thought me a very very valuable lesson. Judge others meticulously, look at all aspects and perspectives, how much they worked at the project and most importantly how the final product is. Its just not fair for people who sacrifice so much to finish what they have started, and end up with nothing much although their end product was fantastic. Consider how others will feel if you just look at their work for 10 minutes and simply stamping a score onto it without further scrutinizing it. One day, I'll be in my lecturer's position, giving evaluations and stuff, and when that day comes I do what is right and just.

I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feeling, please know I don't mean that. All I'm angry with is my teacher's weak judgment.

/Skeith, on holidays now so any events please call me out.

Religion - Awareness

Sorry for the slow update this time. Been pretty bz :P
Anyway, got my new hp today, and yes its cool, way cool. Thanks Dad haha

So, as for today...

Religion!

Yes, religion. In theology class we discuss about them. With friends we debate about them. Nearly all of my friends have a religion to look up to. But not me, and I think I'll be staying this way for some time. Anyway, I better stop digressing, back to the topic now.

So what is a religion? Is it a community who comes together to worship God, believing that total submission is pertinent to gain boons and favors from God? Or is it something to hold on to, so that when one faces failures, one would have a place to cling to and recollect himself. Each of us have reasons to believe in their own religions, whether it be Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, Hinduism or others. But the question is : Is everyone doing their part? Is everyone following the very teachings of their religions? Has it done them better or worse?

One problem, In my opinion, of religions, such as Christianity and Islam ; is that if you believe in the saviour Jesus Christ and pray 5 times a day, you will be able to go to heaven. However, for religions such as Hinduism and Buddhism, one has to work hard, live in austerity and also sacrifice many things, not to mention devote ones life to doing good things : all in the effort to arrive in heaven, or in jargon ; to reach Nirvana. Thats the 2 major differences of these religions. However, I believe that many, if not most people has taken advantage of the free ticket to heaven offered by purchasing admission into Christianity or Islam.

Now, what do I mean by taking advantage. People tend to get lazy, neglect sunday services or good deeds, and depend too much on God. But thats not the worst it can get yet. Today as I was driving home from campus, I was again furious at the traffic jam. Friday, 1 pm, on a bright sunny afternoon, with hopes of going home for a good ol' afternoon nap, I was jubilant. However, I felt like someone threw a boulder in my face as I was stuck in the unforgiving traffic jam for 1 whole hour! And the reason? Illegal parking of cars all over the road because it was time for Friday prayers by the Muslims. Do you see? How more inconsiderate can people get?

As I sat in the car burning my precious nap time away, I thought of how ironic the situation was. In order to offer prayers to Allah, the Muslims simply parked their vehicles which then blocked traffic and disrupted people's schedules. In a hope of erasing some sins, they have created 1 beforehand. Sometimes I wonder how long does one need to remove all of ones sins. People, this is not the way to do thing, this act of selfishness is not what God has been teaching all this while.

I believe that action is more important than mere belief. So what if you pray for a hundred years and kill people for fun. Do you think you can end up in the lands of angels? Well if you do, think again. Again, action above belief. One good deed deserves another.

/Skeith, enraged but cooled due to deserved sleep.

Relationship

Life runs as usual...

But something Peter said today got me into thinking mode.


Long Distance Relationships

Any of you believe in this statement? Ever wonder how it'll ever work out, or how it'll never? For most ppl, falling in love is a novel experience. Before this they were living a life of normality, where everyday seems to be like every other day. But once you 'seemed' to have spotted The One, you thank God for the blessing, you rejoice at the discovery; and once he or she agrees, you celebrate the victory. How seemingly wonderful life is.... but ....how long will this life last?

For some ppl, like me lah, they have to move on to another country, another world to pursue dreams which awaits them. Diverging to a different route than that of your lover, you will begin to wonder "Will I be able to keep it? Will I still love her in the years to come? How do we meet? How do we keep in touch?" With this, most ppl will think of their future. Either ppl fall in love for fun and break up at the end of the year, or they just do not fall in love at all. Such are sad fates, for one would not be able to feel complete, to love with all his heart and.... one will not be able to take her further into your dreams where she should belong.

IMHO in situations like this, one should be confident. Why? Who told you that you cant continue the relationship? If you're really into it, give it everything you've got, and you'll still be able to keep her after even 4 years. I despise people who falls in love just for fun, play the girl and end it. If you think you've loved, think again, cause what you've done was nothing but pure torment to the girl. But for those who thinks they cannot make it, you must be big hearted. How is that so?

Well, watch her from behind, help her up when she falls, brighten her life and make her smile, but most importantly dont let them know you love them. Its sad, but doing so will ensure that she'll be happy, and thus you'll be too. But if you really love, isnt it natural to sacrifice? Isnt it natural not to let her hurt? No doubt that she'll end up somewhere else, loving someone else, and forgetting you. Hey but you were once happy, you once lit a candle, you once loved.

Depends on the situation, you choose which you want to be. But however, whichever path you take, 1 thing's for certain, never hurt her even if you would have to hurt yourself. Life is great ; blow a candle and lit a brighter one. If you ask me, why not?

Only my opinions. Feel free to comment. Dinner and movie awaits so tata and have a nice day people :)

/Skeith, satisfied

The Alpha

After months of procrastination I have finally gotten my blog up and running! Kudos to me

Much have happened in this period of 4 months, when my life changed dramatically after the enrollment at UiTM Shah Alam. Hey but it was fun. I made new friends, hung out a lot and also played my head off at the same time. In a clique of 7 now actually, they are my best friends in UiTM and im glad I met them. Life wasn't so joyous without their presence. Ahh but these stories I shall unveil when I feel like.

My purpose of blogging? Simple and clean : keep old friends informed, keep new ones laughing, and practice my writing skill as well as typing speed although not much is needed anyway. But actually since its an overwhelming trend of the new world I might as well tag along and flow with the crowd. I had fun reading other blogs and thus am inspired to produce one of my own.

So....whats new in my life? ......