Mum oh mum.....

Gah JX beat me to posting about mum. Darn. But anyway here's my bit of it.

Weeks ago my mum was already asking me, "Found anyone you like?" or "Got girlfriend d?" And I was like, Woah mum you want me to study or get into a relationship now?? No kidding, my mum was quietly encouraging me....can't wait for that cup of tea I suppose. And when I told her that I'll do better studying now, she would go ahead and give me the ever sarcastic look, plus = "Sure sure studies first right?"

But of course, I never did tell her that I liked anyone. She doesn't even know her that well, so even if I mentioned it wouldn't do us any good anyway. She might have gotten suspicious because all of the sudden I decided to stay in the hostel. Hey, I told her that I wanted to spend more time with friends, and to study more (no mentions of DOTA yet cause she'll kill me) but she ended up guessing that I've a gf....sigh.

Thats not the end of it. No its just the beginning. Since I wouldn't tell, she begins to guess by means of eliminating the candidates. Yeah laugh all you want, she thinks the only girls I know are the ones from INTEC. So after more 'observations', I think,....I THINK that she has finally come to a conclusion that my target is .... like it or not, Sin.

What observations? VERY normal ones so to speak. I think mum sees me too often fetching her to classes, spending her Starbucks (IT WASN'T EVEN VOLUNTEERY!), and buying her a birthday present...lol. Which got her to wonder why am I treating my neighbour so nicely. She even insisted that I use the wrapping paper with "For someone special" written on it, but I just ignored and asked her to get another one.

Sin : Not trying to be mean or anything, I would have used that wrapper if it wasn't for mum giving me the looks. AND WHATEVER IT IS DONT TELL MANDY!! I dont want them gossiping from across the road when we're at school.........sigh!!

Anyway, this is what I think she thinks. It's kinda obvious anyway the way she puts it. I'll do my best to make her figure it out....somehow.


All in all this 5 days were quite boring. Everyone was bz no time to go out also. Elektra was decent, still haven't seen Phantom yet, and its going off the cinema soon I think. Better make it a point to watch it next week. Assignments still stacking. Wonder when will I have the initiative to initiate work. SIgh, procrastination is built into me, and no force can separate us. Will be back for DOTA on wednesday, yay!! Miss owning ppl so much :P

/Skeith, confused by Her

Subjects ranging from A to Z; yes because I was busy!

Holidays are here! Yay yay. Its been 18 days since my last day off :P
So I'm looking forward to lots of basketballing and dota-ing this hols.

Speaking of DotA, I'm currently responsible for bringing the craze into the INTEC community. And working side by side with me, my partner in crime is Jun Xian. Its great to see more and more people giving in...er I mean accepting the blessings of DotA. It serves as a form of relaxation, and also good for training brain reflexes. SO its a great sport for all! Girls should not feel shy to participate we guys would never mind teaching you all. Remember DotA is not an addictive game who drains our lives away....no siree. Soon there'll be tourneys with my PJ team :P Lolz Cant wait for that day to come! May the light of DotA brighten the nights of my fellow friends!

Had my first University interview today by Yale. I'm upset cause I missed the MIT one. At first I was rather reluctant to go for all this stupid interviews. They freak me out. They drain my confidence. But after today's, I'm quite enthusiastic again. It wasn't that bad you know. I had a really good time talking about myself. And the interviewer, Miss Choo seems friendly enough to me. Though she uses the "Question Set" to interview me, it wasn't really that intimidating. More importantly I managed to tell her what I actually think she would like to hear...so thats good news. I think I got lucky. But then again I was all sincere and humble. Now I know why they ask for that in interviews, because there's no way a person can hate you for being nice and down to earth. That way one can express his thoughts and personal beliefs well. So with that I look forward to more and more interviews! Seems like I'm going to the top unis after all :P

1 University has already accepted me. Happy days. U-of-Illinois. At least NOW im 100% sure I'm going off to the US.

Im definitely pitying He Wei; its sad he had to face such a terror like *******. I try to help out sometimes but, of course, how could I ever stand up to threat that big. Hope He Wei lives to see another day. *sob*

Okok I'm being vicious, like Sin said. I go around bitching about so many other ppl even though some doesn't even concern me. I'm sorry to all of you. Life has been tough to me lately, so I wanted revenge. Don't sit on me for it ok? Peace ^^Y

Neighbour going for driving lessons!! YAY! First : free transports around (you owe me big time remember?!?) Second : Less piano playing time = more peace and sleep for poor ol me. Ops...so much for apologizing. I'm 'vicious', live with it...


Announcements :
Hey Tjia Wen how are you? I know you're bz and stuff and you always seem to be too inconvenient to talk online nowadays. So drop by here and say hi k? Just wanna know that you're fine.

To make things interesting I might consider posting strategies to pwnage (DotA) in the future. My own strategies that is, tested and debugged for perfection. If you trust my maths and analyzing technics then pls try them out. Will begin work when I'm free.

Peter and Jx if you are reading, Peter you owe me Rm40 and Jx Rm7. No discounts sorry I need them to fuel my DotA.

Phoneline is now open for calls concerning bball, dota, movie, or dates. Pls contact me if you seek pleasure and fun. Satisfaction guaranteed.

Pn. Rosha...well if you are readin this thanks for dropping by. Promise you I'll have something inspirational for all to read about next post...or the one after....or maybe the one after that. But there will be one so wait for it k?

Chee Yong thanks for the lessons, now I got addicted to the song...sigh. Will be hogging the guitar for most of the time now and u can't blame me...cause u hooked me! Muahahahahha


Overall :
I would like to thank God for the wonderful week. Truly made up for the horrible one before. Thanks for playing with my mood, I don't blame u though. Cause I learned a few good things about it. I know you meant it to be good. Yeap, I'm very optimistic about it.

Btw God exists in the form of light/photons. Light is from another dimension therefore God is light. Anyone has comments on this? Hehe I would like to hear. More details on this later...



/Skeith, mood - my writing tone speaks for it

Ups and Downs... Too bad this week is down down down

So much has happened this week. Some are really sad:

I find myself having my best times when I'm with friends. Well, not just any friends,...but friends who are guys. No I'm not turning gay.


Which makes me really wonder, why the difference with the girls? It's not that girls are 'hard to understand' or 'demand better treatment', or anything like that. I treat them all the same, kind of. The problem is that some are bitchy, some are irritating, and worst - downright manipulative. I'm so tired of doing things their way and killing myself through it. I'm so tired of following with every one of their requests. I'm so tired of waiting for them. But if I don't, they'll eventually develop grudges against me, which will then grow and grow till they won't even befriend me. They might even plot to murder me *gasp* ...


I was rather down because of this. I really couldn't believe that some can be so ignorant, so uncaring for the feelings of others. Maybe that's how they are groomed to be, going through Cleopetra-like days waiting for the guys to bow down and serve them. Maybe they think that they could control us because we desire them, and therefore they see that as an opening to enslave. Whichever it is I couldn't care less, I just hate it to the core.


I figured then that guys are the best friends any other guy can get. They hold no grudges or hatred for one another (often unless it is another girl problem). Get into a fight and next morning they'll be best buddies again. And guys are just, kinder. No discrimination, no superficial masks, no taking - always the one to offer. Note : this happens only among guys and will not happen in a guy-girl relationship, be it friends of gfbf.


Mixing once more with guys in the past 3 days, I find we simply understood each other better. And for once, I didn't hold back on anything. I was free to do as I will, just like for the past 11 years in boys' school.


I used to be in the 'brotherhood' (all guys association) till I left high school. After going through both worlds now, I see now which path is better in terms of friendship. Don't even mention mix, the standard is no where near compared to brotherly love. Yeap I've becomed biased.


Being the softer sex that are, girls are suppose to be more understanding. I've always thought they had warmer hearts. But sadly there aren't many....in fact only a handful. What is happening? I've been 'observing' some of their responses, most of them are unfortunately cold, which portrays their sheer apathy. Even if they try hard to comfort you with "Oh are you alright? You seem hurt. Don't worry too much." , it will only be followed with "So where for lunch?" or "Oh have you seen this show?" or "I think Brad Pitt is cute."

Yeah they give us joy. They provide satisfaction. They could not care less about us.

A simple "Need help?" from a guy will make me feel much better. At least I'm sure they listen and are sincere about lending a hand. Thank God that the guys I know are responsible, and are true to friends.


** Note : Not all girls are like that, I'm only against this particular type. Think about it, do you fit in here? If you do, think then about our feelings after that.


Out of topic : I still like her. But I would want to be friends again. It's painful that she is ignoring. Maybe she knew and is avoiding. Maybe she thinks we're just not close anymore. I'm not even thinking of relationships now, all I want is to be a friend again...sigh*

Sorry if I whine alot. It was a week choked up with sad memories.



/Skeith, diverging opinions.

Back to School

Sorry for the lag in update. I'm rather preoccupied with school lately, bet you guys can't wait to hear from me :P

1 week has ended since school started, and I thought it was quite great. After all the holidays (even though it wasn't enough), school was rather welcoming. Got to meet up with friends once again, not to mention the teachers too. But school is still school. Sin calls it a college though. To me it's still a school cause we have tight class schedules, loads of homework, and worst of all - strict regulations. Having to wear collar shirts to school everyday is not much different than having to wear uniform to school. Sigh. Yes I'm already complaining although guys are better off than the girls here. But at least the guards won't scold us even though we come back at 1 a.m. :P

Classes are boooorrriiiiinnnnggg. Luckily I got Yeong and Nick to joke around with me behind the classroom. Most of the time when the lecturers (I would rather call them teachers) teaches, we whisper quietly behind. No more talking and lol cause the whole class is soooo quiet! Damnit. Miss the clique. I am so gonna rot in the waves of silence....pray for me ppl.

Nothing could ever compare itself to the weekends though. Saturday was great. A game of basketball and -you know what- for 4 hours = A great big smile. Sprained my toe *ouch*. So I guess I would have to forgo basketball for the next week or so. But its ok, I could always replace the time with more dota ;)

Speaking of DotA, Jun Xian and I have just recruited like 6 more ppl into the ring. Soon more will come, and eventually we could organize a tournament at INTEC :0 . It's so addictive, we had to do it everynight! Hehe so much for New Year Resolution No.5. Like they say if you can't beat em, join em. Then maybe one day I'll beat em...yea that will do...I'm sure it'll happen. But as of now, DotA till there's no tomorrow !

Sunday was even better. Dad took us out for banana leaf rice which I was devoid of since my trip to China. Comment = ate till I couldn't walk, honest. After that came online and downloaded like 50 chinese songs to last me for the next 2 weeks. See? What a great day! Well compared to school days, it is. No doubt.

Packing my bags for another week in INTEC. I wonder how long I can survive before I start coming home more often. Staying there is dull, the only thing that is keeping me alive is -you know what-. See how it goes.


Oh now I'm an official camera man for the INTEC Community Body which is going to aid the Asian Tsunami victims in Kedah by gathering food and money for them. And what do I do? Snap pictures. Sigh. I was hoping for something...worthier. Guess thats what I deserve for not attending the meeting. But whatever it is, I'll try my best. The team needs a camera man too, and someone has to do it. I'll do everything I can to snap quality pictures and at the end of the day smile knowing that I've done a good job. I'm just pissed that I'm the one doing it. I've always the One. Yeah, the One who gets the boot, the one who is first on the reserve team in coral-speaking, the one who does everything and gets nothing. Why is it always me?

But then again, maybe the job ain't that bad. Maybe its just me. Maybe there are worst. It's not like I have any choices, so I'll just go with the flow...

Thats all for now. More thoughts next week.


Is experience what you get when you don't get what you want?

/Skeith, sleepy

A Reason to Start Anew

New Year with a new hope. I see 2005 as a brand new start to improve myself, and get on with chasing my dreams and desire. Yup it is now the second day of the year.....and all I've done is a movie, a few games of Dota, and hours of sleeping -_-" . Haha but it doesnt matter, cause there are 363 more days to go.

Of course, I have new year resolutions too. Its nearly the same every year, but I really hope to fulfill them this year. Argh time to grow up and change things around here.

1. Priority!! DO NOT PROCRASTINATE. I must be born with this trait. I do it more often than anybody I have known. This year, I'm gonna delay things no longer than 48 hours after the job is given to me. Im gonna work fast, and efficiently.

2. Study. study. study. I've been achieving good results by luck so far, and I think that luck has just turned on me. So this time, I'm gonna earn it the old-fashioned way - mugging. Far more secure than depending on luck.

3. Earn some money. Someone reminded me that I'm not that rich and my assets are just lying in the bank waiting to grow a little everyday. I'll probably find a way to make them grow faster :P.

4. Quit DOTA. Surprised? This might be the hardest thing yet. But I'll try.

5. Get into MIT or Harvard. Aiks sounds like a wish. I don't care. I promise that I'll pray to God everyday for at least 2 months if I get into either. I mean, considering how I rushed my apps, if I did get into any, it means that God IS really somewhere out there.

6. Spend more time with friends and family.

Thats about it..



There has been a current trend of listing your friends name and then thanking them. Sigh. I'll try my best not to miss any of you. In no particular order 'i'm serious. there is no favoritism' , here it is :

Fung Hong - Thanks for being there for me when I needed help. Thanks for inspiring me. But most of all thanks for going thru thick and thin with me for the past 10 years.

Yuan Tsing - Thanks for making me laugh alot, I mean it. And thanks for all the stories you shared with me, it meant alot to me. Thanks for the advices and the lifts home, appreciated them.

Kugen - Thanks for laughing. You made many of my days with that crazy laughter. Thanks for being optimistic and brightening the days.

Arif - Thanks for all the food during raya. Haha actually, thanks for all the times we shared our trouble and experiences. Thank you for listening and understanding. And thanks for being such a good competitor in PS2 gaming. PS2 would be quite meaningless without you.

Geoffrey - Thanks for the guidance and the knowledge that you passed on. Thanks for being there everybody when there is trouble. Don't push yourself too hard in life. Thanks for hooking me to Dota.

Zhuu Ming - Thanks for being such an inspirator. You really made me push myself. Thanks for sticking with me. Thanks for all the great ideas and advices. No thanks for beating me in studies. But thank you for letting me know that I'm not the best student around.

Govind - Thank me for being there for you. But I thank you for being there for me too. Thanks for all the great time in Magic. Thanks for letting me win so much, I really had fun.

Joey - Bro thanks for trusting me. Thanks for all the great time in school. And thanks for being such a kind guy. I appreciate it. Good luck in your love life.

Chze Lor - Thanks for the jokes. Thanks for the time we had in Form 5.

Gerard - Thanks for living with me even though I insulted you so. Thanks for making the gang get together again.

Jen-Sen - Yeah thanks for being nice to me. Ur not to everybody :P. Just kidding haha. Thanks for the good ol days in scouts. I truly had fun, didn't u? Thanks for still keeping in touch and calling me out sometimes.

Peter Wong - Thanks for sharing with me, and trusting me. Thanks for all the fun time we had. Don't let the past drain your future. Thanks for your time and understanding. Thanks for encouraging when I am down.

Jun Xian - Thanks for the fun, the jokes, the experiences. Thanks for helping me in class. Thanks for being a kind guy and a great buddy who doesnt really mind helping friends. More importantly, thanks for being there for all of us and not get to engrossed with ur relationship. Most of all, thank you for your encouragement, and thanks for trusting me.

Chee Yong - Thanks for so much help and encouragement in studies, life, and even games. Had alot of fun talking with you. I found out that we had alot in common. Thanks for being such a comrade.

Joyce - Thanks for being able to work with me. Thanks for spending time with me. Thanks for chatting with me in class when nobody is there to talk to me. Thanks for helping me with my burdens. Above all, thanks for really understanding and bearing with me.

Sin Yi - Thanks for finally saying hi to me after ignoring me for so many years. Thanks for the help you offered. And thanks for the great times in the car. No thanks for starbucks and petrol money. But hey, thank you for helping me learn to save $.

Joo Lee - Thanks for cheering me up. Thanks for making me laugh. Thanks for the things you share with me. Thanks for helping me out when I needed it. You are a very lucky girl. Hope you always would be.

Melissa - Thanks for being nice to me and all. Thanks for talking to me when I'm down. Thanks for being there and cheering me up. And thanks for still keeping in touch, 2 years isnt long, but I had great memories with you.

Tjia Wen - Thanks for the last 6 months. I'm sure you are enjoying life now. We've grown quite apart since college started. But I did enjoyed the late night conversations that we had. Thanks for being understanding and so willing to listen to my stories. Thanks for the advices. Thanks for being honest. And thanks for the time together. Good luck in life.

Vin Li - Thanks for the late nights. Thanks for thinking me as someone useful, glad to be of service. Thanks for all the great financial advices :P. And thanks....thanks for being honest.

Josephine - Thanks for the past 2 years of non-stop chatting, teasing, enlightening and endless gossips. No actually, thanks for being able to tolerate me. You should know that I'm very honest with you, and throws all sort of rubbish and complains at you. I'm sorry if I had been a hard time. But thanks for helping me so much, thanks for making me stick in DragonRaja for an extra 3 months. If it weren't for you, I would have gone much earlier. Thanks for still keeping in touch.

Phylicia - Thanks for the sweet times we had together. Thank you for brightening my days, as well as darkening them. But I appreciate both. You taught me about a whole lot of things, Christianity, family, love... I'm sure you made the right choice. I miss those days we had together. Thanks for so so much.

Andy - Thank you so much for being such a buddy. You would sacrifice so much for me, I remember. Keep in touch. I will always remember you. Thanks for all the great memories.

Isaac Ng - Thanks for being a friend when I was in need. Thanks for keeping in touch, and thanks for all the witty jokes. I really had fun in NS. Above all, Thank you for being a great guy to hang around with.

Vanessa - Thanks for the witty comments and fun in class. 11A wouldnt be the same without you haha. Thanks for helping out. Hope to get to know you better in the future.

Sara - Sara, thanks for all the help, the weird talks we had. Thanks for sharing with me. Sorry if I was being a stranger, but I really hope to get to know you better. Thanks for all the times you got me thinking. Ah and thanks for talking about *** . You really got me laughing. Had fun :P

Elizabeth - Thanks for being cute around me. I enjoyed your company. And thanks for being such a kind and bubbly girl, making things brighter for everyone.

Nick - Thanks for being kind and a buddy. Hope to get to know you better in the future. By means of Dota, or talking :P. Saw you with Karen that day in 1U but you couldn't hear me when I called. Wish you all the best with her.

Yeong- Hey thanks for being so helpful. Thanks for the entertainment and thanks for the encouragement you gave me. I respect you. *salute*

Chen Yee - Thank you so much for everything. Thank you for sharing, spending time with me, and changing me. Miss you, and miss those days we had together. I hope we could have them back, those were one of the happiest days of my life. But life goes on and we move on. Thank you for being more than a friend to me. Thank you for brightening up my life so much. Thank you for making me realize so much. Thank you for being you.


Everybody, thanks for being a great friend, and a whole lot more. What is life without you all?
Happy New Year! And may this be a great year to all of you.

/Skeith, your friend