Humans not meant to be nocturnals

I ought to do more updates. Perhaps during free periods in the comp lab or while waiting for 'kaki' to arrive for dota games. I feel that this place is too empty. I want to look back here in the future and remember the things that I've done, remember those happy and sad moments, what made me proud, what made my day, who was in my life and so on. I guess that's one of the reasons that nabbed me into the blogging community in the first place.

Arsenal has been losing a considerable lot in the past week. Defeat is followed by another defeat. Plus Reyes has been banned for three matches for violent conduct in the FA Cup fifth-round tie against Sheffield United on Saturday. SIGH. Tomorrow there's a match against Southampton. They had better perform cause I'll be watching :P . Still very far away from Chelsea though. Hopefully they'll be able to take all the silverware and take the throne again.

Oh since I'm blogging more, I suppose I can skip the rest of the week's events for later entries.

Been pondering lately, why are my thoughts so unfocused nowadays. I wanted to access this problem long ago but somehow procrastination always seem to stand in my way. YES even for things like this procrastination will interrupt. It will take longer than I think to kick out the habit. Anyway, whenever I sleep I get dreams, dreams that I will not remember vividly or at all when I wake up. EVERY NIGHT. I don't get this last time but its very occasionally now unless I'm dead tired, that is when I will sleep through the whole night. And when I wake up, I would still feel tired, not fresh. Only when nights when I am dead tired and sleep through soundly will I wake up feeling brand new. That is rare, and I honestly pray for it.

I can't think like I used to anymore. I can't access and control the situations in games of Dota like I used to in Warcraft, I forget calculus theorems in a day or two, I forget to do my daily routines sometimes. I don't blame it on age, because the cause of all the problems is most likely late night activities, or horrible diet. First, INTEC has a despicable chain of mamak and food stores around. There is no decent food in a radius of ...hell... 1 kilometre. Haha okok overexaggerating. So if its not Pattaya it will have to be Maggi Goreng (best in the menu). Moreover, its double trouble because all the oily and friend food adds to the amount of volcanos on my face.

Next, night activities.... stuff like late night talk-cock and dota and assignments are giving me hell. For one part the assignments add to uncontrolled stress, the rest just goes on and on through the night.

Put them together, you get a tired student who always finds a seat behind a big classmate so I can get a decent snooze. You also get a bad tempered team player who goes around shouting in the cc like a madman due to the inability to control emotions or the game for that matter (sorry for being a bastard). Worst, you get a JPA scholar who can actually score a miraculous 67 for calculus. What can I say? Disappointing.

Don't worry people. I'm nowhere near breakdown. Just a problem I need to resolve so that I could resume a proper life. And don't ask me to quit Dota... I'm sure its not the solution. Logically because it helps take away the tention and put on a smile on my face always. I'll try to solve this problem however.

First step....sleep.

/Skeith, snoooozing.

A purpose for everything.

It's been a busy week.

Everynight I had to keep my eyes open till 3 or 4 am either to study for the exam on the next day, complete a project, prepare for a speech or even finish a writing journal. Sigh STRESS!!! Night time worst, dota 'appointments' and laptop games when there are no work to be done.... Again...STRESS!! But luckily all was worth it because I had a smashing Saturday.

Slept till 10 in the morning. Jen-Sen called for ball but I told him that I was busy, so no bball this Saturday. Felt great for once I didn't have to wake up early. Then I proceeded to Chenz' house, after picking up Jun and Joo from Carrefour. Yeah so the 4 of us, including Sin, drove around in a few circles before we managed to find her 'mansion'. Yeap it was a big house :P. Maid opened the gates, we entered.

And we saw Chenz inside, together with Zach, Joyce, Pei Xin and Kok Yee who arrived earlier. Chenz was in a pink dress, and I was like @@ oo wow !!. Thats really unlike her. She looked really beautiful this afternoon, like a princess in her best dress. What happened to the Chenz I know? Complete turnover. I think everyguy who saw her today was shocked,....at least I am. It's not that I'm deprived. I do go home and to Pyramid so I DO get to see girls in dresses. This is just something new. She looked her best today.

SO anyway I got to meet some Taman Sea ppl for REAL this time. Yoong Xiong, troop leader and so called yau yeng dota player, was a friendly guy. I didn't really noticed him in his campfire or at Sunway College though. Haha he got really pissed at me today for that :P. Then Kenneth was there too. Old Sunway friend, we lost contact till today. Had great chats with both of them. There were some other familiar faces from Sunway there but I only said Hi.

We had lunch. Then we had a gambling session again. Sigh lost another RM10. THis is the first year I'm actually losing money!! Really bad luck this year. Time to add more windchimes and pagodas in my room to up the luck...

4pm and we had to go. Then I noticed that I didn't really talked much to Chenz today. I mean, I didn't try. All there was were : Hey you look great. Thank you. Hey Eric take summore food. Sure thanks I'll help myself. And so on so forth with all the literally 'small talks'. Plus its the first time I'm using her name in the blog. Guess I'm more open to her now. Feelings gone? Yea maybe for now...but who knows.

And oh yea we left her house. Damn I didn't get to snap a picture of her. Oh well :P
What next? We proceeded to finish our weekend projects. Venue : SS15 WarneT!! Yes yet another session of DotA! But these time Joyce and Sin came along cause they wanted to watch. 20 minutes later, they left the cc for burgers. And we went on for 3 hours. Only 3 games, but what to say, they were mixed with disappointments and joy. Overall I felt like a leader cause I managed to bring together my not so cooperative team against 2 pros in the second game. Proud, I am =) But stressed. Next game, again me and JX proved ourselves to be worthy teammates when we engaged and stopped the other team dead in their tracks. Muahaahah long live Shah Alam Dota Pros! Looking forward to more. At least I needn't plan and strategize with him. We signal, gang, kill, and laugh at it. Great to have him as a partner ;) .

Girls came back later to make some noise behind us, but I didn't catch what they were saying. I guess it meant dinner. So we quickly ended the 3rd game with no mercy whatsoever for the other team and left for good food. Gotta go with the ladies. So we had good dinner for a good price. Then drove them home. Sin got depressed knowing that her other girlfirends had a bitchfit on her. Yea I know how she feels. Happens to all of us. But hey we just say sorry and get on with it. Can't live on having our friends hating us can we?

So after all that moving around and pressing on keyboards, I finally reached home.........only to find a pile of projects (for real this time) on my table - untouched, unrefined, unfinished! Nvm! At least I had a good time today...wait...smashing time today! How nice it would be if everyday is like today.

Why am I writing so much? I'm happy. Sara - define happy. Here it is, in a post. Tata and see ya next week ppl.

/Skeith, threw aside the projects to blog...MUAHAHA ^^Y

Chase the Dragon

Shit I'm drunk again. And its only noon! Been drinking for the past 5 days non-stop, haha cause its like "Once a year only mar". Luckily I'm not the type who gets drunk and acts silly or go around telling out ppl's secrets such as Joyce likes Pei Xin or stuff like that. :P

CNY was fun, no doubt. I went through the same routine like every other previous years, going from house to house meeting relatives. Playing mahjong and cards and winning some money. But this year my net profit (angpau total) increased by a whooping RM150!! Either the economy has been recovering or my relatives are being more generous, I dunno. Hope the numbers keep going up in the following years. Money is always welcome.

Luck, on the other hand, is getting worse. I just lost RM100 of angpau money - god knows where it flew to - , burnt my cd-rom, burnt my room-light all in 2 days. Gambling was so-so, no win no lose this year. Maybe the guys back in Shah Alam would wanna have overnight sessions, I would look forward to that. But looking at the big picture, this year's luck is probably going to be quite bad for me. Some fengshui master came to see my room and he said "Tsk Tsk, everything is wrong here. But you can shift the bed over there and the table over here to change the fengshui. However, its still going to be quite bad. I advice you move out of this room." I was not a believer, but after what happened, I found myself trusting fengshui now. If you come to my room there are pagodas, old chinese coins and wind chimes around. But still, no help. Somehow my hot, congested, small room in Shah Alam hostel seems more welcomed now.

Vin is leaving for Melbourne tomorrow. So wish you all the best in your pursue for your degree, and also for a boyfriend. And don't worry lar, Melbourne's a big place and I'm sure you'll find lots of guys to drool over. Won't be there to send you off lor cause I'm busy here too. Take care.

Yuan Tsing hows are you doing so far trying to spread the Dota craze in Aus? If you need help getting them hooked just ask them to contact me, alwiz willing to help. All the best to you too.

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A little bit of maths now.

Tonight : Manchester City > Manchester United and ;
Arsenal > Crystal Palace but ;
Newcastle < Fulham ;

//Lets see how much is accurate. Let the games begin. Sigh I wish I was back in NS
//where I could bet in football again.

return 0;

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Oh and Valentine's Day is tomorrow!! Yes Joey, chocolates sounds great. I'll steal your idea thank you very much.

/Skeith, many things to look forward to

Red Days are coming!

Hargh! Can't believe how many ppl actually reads my blog. Now I know how I get 40 reads per day sometimes. Hmm... this place needs boundaries, cannot overexpose...

Yuan Tsing is leaving for Australia this Thursday, and luckily we had the time to meet up once again before he left. Thanks for everything man. Looking forward to meeting the new you in the future, till then take care.

Hey Jun Xian, if your recent post refers to me, I'll tell you again. Things lost are lost, I'm sorry. I'm no God I cant bring it back to you. I understand that it is of sentimental value, I'd do everything that I can to get it back, but too bad I couldn't, I tried. I wouldn't want to see our friendship go down like this because of a bar of chocolate. You really sounded really angry and that 'friend' in your post, either it is intentional or not, meant for me or not, its painful to read. Hope you forgive and forget.

Getting ready for CNY now. So much to clean in the house. Haha but I'm thinking of it as work for all the angpau (paychecks) that I'll receive later on, so I'm not complaining whatsoever. The house is really in the mood now for CNY, every corner red with decorations, every table filled with food and tidbits and ba-gua. In the next 3 days guests would be coming in and out, sharing tales, drinking, gambling! So much is going to happen. This is going to be the last year I'd be celebrating CNY in Malaysia before I leave for the US. I'm making it worthwhile.

So, Happy Chinese New Year to all of you! Remember take only the cash, share the rest.

Out for now.

/Skeith, still remembers Arsenal's 3-1 game, oh luvly...just luvly.

Holidays once more...

Yay...the Chinese New Year holidays are finally here. After enduring sleepless nights of programming, mugging, and also worksheets, I finally get to sit down and relax. PHHHHEEEEEWW.

Who said Sem 2 was honeymoon anyway? The workload now, I can safely say, is double of what we had for the last sem. The lecturers just love bombarding us with projects and homeworks, as if they didn't have to mark them themselves. But anyway I got to manage thanks to Dota - fuh without it I wouldn't have the strength to stand up and fight anymore. I'll keep on playing Dota, nothing is going to stop me :P

Slept at 6 am yesterday because Yeong and I were both rushing to finish our programs. Since I was rather a perfectionist, both of us had to sit through the night to figure out EVERY possible loopholes in our programs. And finally at around 4, we finished it! No errors whatsoever. Nothing that could break the program! So proud :P:P. The thing about being a perfectionist is the joy and satisfaction that you can savor knowing that you have given it all your best. The end results used to matter to me, but not as much anymore. Perhaps I've changed.

Calculus test sux though. I got some hard questions wrong....but luckily Sin got most of the easy questions wrong LOL. Walking off early with your chin up high is not good sometimes. As for me I think I'll better study more the next time an exam crawls by. I'm really taking things to easily nowadays...Sigh I blame myself, not Dota. Work work work work!!

Now to the more interesting part, DotA! This week we have a new addition to the gang - Nick. And he'll be here more often after CNY. Hehe at least Nick is a seasoned pro and I wouldn't feel too bad taking all the kills for myself :P . DotA in Shah Alam just got sweeter. Looking forward to owning again after CNY. Till then, practice harder guys.

I think I'll stop here lar. Don't wanna make it so long you people are yawning already. More to come soon.

Btw, things are bitter. Maybe I'm sensitive, but sad to say, it's yesterday no more.

/Skeith, living the fun and the sad.