Sunday, March 27, 2005

In the name of Allah

Something from the news column.

American military scientists followed a similar path using lasers in the 1980s. Using intersecting beams of infrared or microwave frequency, they found they could create a glowing sphere. Repeating the laser pulses produced a continuous light with a loud crackling, hissing sound. This light could be moved around by moving the beams, but what intrigued the scientists most was that the sound could be altered by changing the laser pulses. With some refinements it could be modulated at will, with high enough fidelity to carry a human voice. In 1991, it was proposed that the talking fireball should be put to use in the Gulf, appearing as the Voice of Allah and calling on Iraqi troops to overthrow Saddam Hussein. The idea was rejected by military planners, but the technology is still available.

Technology will own us one day....

/Skeith

Friday, March 25, 2005

Just for kicks

Calculus exam 2 is finally over. I dont think I've done well at all, bad in fact. And for once I realized that I need to study. What have I been doing for the past 4 months? Everything but studying. Regrets.

The exam...was enlightening. Funny, because normally when I finish I would rush to the CC for a 'stress-relieve' period. But this time I rejected DotA and went back to the hostel right after. Wanted to get some sleep actually, but I just laid down on my bed and started thinking. I was pondering on what I was doing now. Am I not suppose to be in my books doing what the others are doing? I'm not too talented anyway.

So I was thinking...then I drifted in my thoughts.....and I picked up the Cal book and studied. LOL right after the exam I WAS STUDYING! It was done subconsciously though, must be really sad that moment. Wait what happens after is better. I put down the book after finishing Chap 6.1....and took up the broom. I proceeded to sweep my hostel room, which I haven't done since....since.....forever... Yeap. Psycho! To think that an exam could do such things to meself. I'm proud though, my room is finally cleaned.

Some issues are really heating up. Having discussions and debates even now.

I'll update soon. Oh btw did I mention I got rejected by MIT? A little disappointed. But it has passed.

/Skeith

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Together Forever

Alot of ppl are worried about their university admission. Silly ppl. Whats done is done. As long as you get 1 nothing to worry about. Unless of course, its one that you were forced to apply. Other than that every other unis are personal preferences no? Shouldn't getting into any of them be a happy thing? Hehe I'm personally not worried about all this.

Druglord is sick. How the hell u guys get billions? Highest I managed was 1 billion. I'll try more.

DOTA = OMGWTFBBQ! I haven't played for the week. Only one day which was on thursday. After that, nil zero zeuch. HOHO and I didn't even think about playing at all. For one, I'm glad I reduced the addiction. But then this is quite disappointing actually. I wanted to abstain, but not till this extent! Someone please hook me back again. I need to reconnect. I need salvation!

Calculus test AGAIN next week. You know, the results of the test would ultimately depend on how I spend my time this 3 days studying for it. I can foresee that there will be DotA, there will be Gorillaz, there will be druglord, and of course the guitar as distractions. But I don't want to screw this one, really I screwed my last one and it wasn't the best feeling in the world. Neither do I want to study for it cause nothing will enter my head eventually. I HAVE thought of copying as the easy way out, but I can never do that properly la. Maybe checking the answers with neighbour before passing it up on that day. Yea that might be better. Anyway, I'll study this time. Not that it means anything, just to satisfy my not so inflated ego nowadays.

Simple Plan - Hahahahahah. Hey man I hated the group. But how come the more I listen to them the more hooked I get? I don't listen to their lyrics of course, songs get my attention only because of the tune. And after a few more playings, they actually sound better. Still I think they're a bunch of losers, but kudos on the song tune. Won't go for their concert however.


Ah went for cousin's wedding yesterday. It was beautiful. Not just the people, the bridesmaid or the best man OR the bride/groom. There was a little bit of worship(is this the word?) too. Haha non-christians were shocked of course. I'm all too familiar with it. Songs and speeches later, the bride walked in through the aisle. The whole event was a sight to be remembered for a long time, and of course to you 2 - forever.



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Bridesmaids

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Uncle David and her daughter the bride, Joanna

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Steffan and Joanna

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You may now kiss the bride...


All the best to the both of you in life. Take care Joanna, you're a lucky girl :P
Remember to mail me the angpaus next year, don't think you can get away MUAhaha. God bless you.

/Skeith, a weekend to remember.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Digi-Christ

emotion caved in long Ago,
Wires run from the wrist to the machine
the combination none to subtle,
taking away the passions of youth.

He Remembers; those days long ago, when he ran in the grassy fields,
summer's and lover's embrace wrapping him with love,
the heat of solar rays burning into his skin,
the best cancer could ever feel, wrapped in the arms of eternity.

The tear ducts ran dry long ago,
He cannot move his head, so long ago Fused To a socket
THE MACHINE
wires snake sensualy into every pore,
his mind flying at lightspeed, through thought and sound
millions of desicions made at once,
the sound of the servitor choir hailing the praise
"DEUS EX MACHINA. DEUS EX MACHINA"
Hail the machine, the flesh is weak
He has lived too long without a brush of skin on his body,
his own worn away long ago by the implants that hardwire him into his niche,
and his lover and children long gone,
a digital christ with a crown of diodes blinking
wires running from his torn side to his amputated feet,
bearing the marks of a hateful world.
"If only," he mused, "My sorrow had died too."
Hail Omnissiah, king of the machine.



/Skeith, metallic love

Monday, March 14, 2005

Friends, Good Friends, and Such Good Friends

So, how do you look at your friends?


In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In first grade your idea of a good friend was the person who went to the bathroom with you and held your hand as you walked through the scary halls.

In second grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you stand up to the class bully.

In third grade your idea of a good friend was the person who shared their lunch with you when you forgot yours on the bus.

In fourth gradeyour idea of a good friend was the person who was willing to switch places with you in the bus so you wouldn't have to be sit with Nasty Nick or Smelly Susan.

In fifth grade your idea of a friend was the person who saved a seat on the back of the bus for you.

In sixth gradeyour idea of a friend was the person who went up to Nick or Susan, your new crush, and asked them to dance with you, so that if they said no you wouldn't have to be embarrassed.

In seventh grade your idea of a friend was the person who let you copy homework from the night before that you had.

In eighth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pack up your stuffed animals and old baseball but didn't laugh at you when you finished and broke out into tears.

In ninth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who would go to a party thrown by a senior so you wouldn't wind up being the only freshman there.

In tenth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who changed their schedule so you would have someone to sit with at lunch.

In eleventh gradeyour idea of a good friend was the person who gave you rides in their new car, convinced your parents that you shouldn't be grounded, consoled you when you broke up with Nick or Susan, and found you a date to the prom.

In twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pick out a college/university, assured you that you would get into that college/university, helped you deal with your parents who were having a hard time adjusting to the idea of letting you go...

At graduation your idea of a good friend was the person who was crying on the inside but managed the biggest smile one could give as they congratulated you.

The hols after twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you clean up the bottles from that party, helped you sneak out of the house when you just couldn't deal with your parents, assured you that now that you and Nick or you and Susan were back together, you could make it through anything, helped you pack up for university and just silently hugged you as you looked through blurry eyes at 18 years of memories you were leaving behind, and finally on those last days of childhood, went out of their way to give you reassurance that you would make it in college as well as you had these past 18 years, and most importantly sent you off to college knowing you were loved.

Now, your idea of a good friend is still the person who gives you the better of the two choices, holds your hand when you're scared, helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you, thinks of you at times when you are not there, reminds you of what you have forgotten, helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer, stays with you so that you have confidence, goes out of their way to make time for you, helps you clear up your mistakes, helps you deal with pressure from others, smiles for you when they are sad, helps you become a better person, and most importantly loves you!

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Uncle Sam awaits me

Hoho what an anime freak I've become. Spent a whole day watching 20 episodes of Full Metal Alchemist, thats approximately 10 hours....phew. Blame it on the lecturers for not giving work to do this week. Oh wait, they did actually, I'll just do it later then.

Best of all no DOTA this weekend. Yea I was supposed to go for some team challenge with Cheeyong,Simon, YX but too bad no transport. Then I was ALSO supposed to play with scout and lordy that night but again I had to go out. YAY! Surprised? I'm actually trying to cut down on this stuff. It's draining my life away so a little control is necessary. I'm proud *sniff*

I'm wondering now what classes to take once I reach the states. There's probably gonna be hundreds and hundreds to choose from. Symbology, dance, drama, sociology, psycology..just to name a few that sounded interesting. It's dilemma all over again. SO much (yes much) to choose from, yet so little time to do.

Hmm.. also looking forward to the states, the great kingdom of burgers. Bet the burgers there are like 2 times larger than the ones over here *drools*. Besides that, pizza. Oh lasagna. Sound so much like heaven to me.

Next the girls....nuff said. Self explanatory.

Technology! I'm prolly gonna turn into a shoppaholic there, looking at the amount of new gadgets to be found there. Plus its cheaper too. Already have the shopping list here. All new laptop first > new computer > mp3 player > whatever is left if I still have cash. Very nice ;)

I decided to dedicate even more time to fun now. I turned down entertainment at first, thinking that I'm doin rather bad in my studies. But I just found out that only credits are transfered, not the grades (that is good new btw) . So no worries about scratching my records with all the B's here. Just do my best, and have some fun ;). What a great way to live life....ahhh. Oh and don't even bother reminding me about competition, I'm over that since I came here. Too many smart asses around. So I came out with a new policy. If I can't beat them, I probably couldn't join them either, might as well ignore them. Working fine even till today :P


/Skeith, gonna have some fun now.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Weekend = Rest time.

Dzuhailah is right. Why the hell did I spend my whole Sunday working on a presentation which will only earn me a little more than 10%? I would believe that a work with less effort would end up with the same marks, having seen the incompetence of my ACS lecturer. She's lazy, she doesn't know anything about what she teaches (what the heck, she doesn't even teach us anything!!), and worst...she thinks she's so well-read and we're all a stupid bunch of immature kids. I hate her. Again, I should have spent more time doing some other things (most probably resorting to Dota) than 10 whole hours on the presentation. Whats done is done anyway...

Ah yes, yesterday was a so-so birthday. Normal Saturday, cause I didn't do anything extraordinary except going out with family for dinner in San Francisco Steakhouse. The rest of the day was just spent lazing around watching TV and surfing the net. But honestly the relaxing time did me well, I needed a break from doing things. Even when I'm not stressed up studying for quizzes and finishing projects, I'll be preoccupied with Dota. So yesterday was a do-nothing day, and thanks to that I feel fresher than ever ;) . Most interesting birthday? Nah. Still enjoyable nontheless.

Its March, time seems to just fly by. One more month till the universities' results come out. *Nervous* . I'll probably get denied by some of the top ones, but of course I still hope to get into 1 at least. Any one! I'll just keep on praying. Wish me luck you guys. Need lots of them.

The procrastinating me is slowly vanishing. I find myself getting work done at least a day or two before the due dates now. And hey, working early does have its benefits. For one I could check back and see how I did. Also, I would be able to do other things without ever worrying about it again. Life runs smoother this way. I think I like the non-procrastinating me. The problem is to keep up with it.

Then, the perfectionist me is getting worse at the moment. I find myself doing things slowly and carefully, sometimes triple checking my work just to see that it is perfectly correct and functional. NOT GOOD! I've spent too much time on unnecessary things like this when I could use them to take care of other matters. I need to balance myself properly from now. Someone please make me understand that winning isn't everything!

Hmm..isn't it? Well some things I really couldn't careless, but others, LIKE DOTA! Now winning truly isn't everything....ITS THE ONLY THING! Dota has, ironically, transformed from a source of entertainment to pure stress. Nowadays I sound like some military camp trainer trying to keep my team together just for the win, and mind you commanding a team that doesn't like to listen to your directions is totally mind-blowing. I wish I could play like the old days, where everyone does his part perfectly and I could sit down to play calmly, enjoying every second of it. Well, I think next week I'm gonna give up strategizing, and stick more to playing on my own. It's only a game anyway.....right?? Sigh. This is going to be hard I can tell....

Oh yea, Henry is God. Saw the hat trick he pulled off? Fantastic! Arsenal was disappointing but after yesterday, I start to see hope in them again! GOGO GUNNARS!
I'm forever here rooting for you guys!

INTEC is having its Science and Math Carnival soon. Really looking forward to it. Wonder what shop I should open? I think I'll leave that for later. Oh and Wendy and Poh Yee mentioned that they will be opening a store on that day. Being a responsible and dedicated cameraman for the big event, I promise that I won't let everyone down. Just count on me to snap tons of pictures of Poh Yee hahahahahah XD! *Sniff*
I smell business ;)

Till next time then.


/Skeith, rested and ready for more torture.